Friday, December 25, 2009

Xmas..Let's go with the black font colour today.
Cos it resembles my mood today, which is Xmas day. You know, the day Jesus Christ came down and made his way to the cross..
I'm not sad that He came. I am actually elated that He came. Love you Jesus.
But i miss Xmas service today and it was like i didn't get anymore Xmas present from my parents anymore.
Till now i'm still jobless and waivering on whether i should get a job and stick it out there like the rest of my pals. I wish Xmas is the day the sky went black.. where dark snow fell like ashes in the sky.
Creepy but i like. Reminds me of a Gundam song, "Ash like snow". but the opposite.
You know, i feel like sometimes i am a person that has lost his original self and turned into something his not happy to be.
Maybe i love scoring good grades and stuff but i lost sense of myself. I love staring at nothingness as though it were home. Or maybe i'm self delusional but i'm not using the potential i have in something which i'm still searching for. Something i could do to the fullest and enjoy it while serving the Lord..
Maybe that's why i love darkness. God is as terrifying to face as he is lovely..

nev3rbealone!