Friday, December 25, 2009

Xmas..Let's go with the black font colour today.
Cos it resembles my mood today, which is Xmas day. You know, the day Jesus Christ came down and made his way to the cross..
I'm not sad that He came. I am actually elated that He came. Love you Jesus.
But i miss Xmas service today and it was like i didn't get anymore Xmas present from my parents anymore.
Till now i'm still jobless and waivering on whether i should get a job and stick it out there like the rest of my pals. I wish Xmas is the day the sky went black.. where dark snow fell like ashes in the sky.
Creepy but i like. Reminds me of a Gundam song, "Ash like snow". but the opposite.
You know, i feel like sometimes i am a person that has lost his original self and turned into something his not happy to be.
Maybe i love scoring good grades and stuff but i lost sense of myself. I love staring at nothingness as though it were home. Or maybe i'm self delusional but i'm not using the potential i have in something which i'm still searching for. Something i could do to the fullest and enjoy it while serving the Lord..
Maybe that's why i love darkness. God is as terrifying to face as he is lovely..

nev3rbealone!

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Hey guys, what do you think when a girl looks at you?
And girls, what do you think when a guy looks at you?

I know it sounds like i'm gonna give another sermon cos i have no idea myself. Personally, i think guys don't wanna look lustfully but fail in their resolve while girls don't wanna see guys as pervs but also fail to do so. Trying to see this from the point of view of the male and mighty female kind, i would say,"give us a break. we won't behave like this if you don't treat us like this." Though now many will rebuke strongly and call me idiot, i know that, but it works for some. Well screw that, cos it doesn't make much sense to me and i totally wrote all that crap to fill up typing space.

Anyway, i've recently stuck a foot into the modelling world and i hope they call again. While i wait, i shall talk more on msn and fb. So i'm not gonna talk more.

Until next time then.

7:02 AM

nev3rbealone!

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Once upon a time, a boy laid down at the carpark in church and gazed at the night sky.
Clouds were blanketing the moon and only its light could be seen. It formed bright and beautiful linings in the clouds and he was amazed by this sight. Never once did he stop to realise the beauty of the surroundings and here he was, looking upon the wonders of a peaceful night. The cars were slowly cruising pass the church gates. The engines had becoming soft and subtle, to the point where it had joined and blended in perfectly and harmoniously with the music of nature. Such is the power of the awesome God. Even noise had become sweet and the fear of darkness and solitary has been engulfed by the warm and binding light of heaven. Even the boy who was alone felt warmth and comforted as he reflected the beauty of His creation. Never before did he feel more secure than being together with friends and family, never would he feel lonely again.

Guess who that boy is?

3:09 AM

nev3rbealone!

Saturday, December 12, 2009

i miss my friends...i miss my friends...i miss my friends...i miss my friends...i miss my friends...i miss my friends...
i miss my friends...i miss my friends...i miss my friends...i miss my friends...i miss my friends...i miss my friends...
i miss my friends...i miss my friends...i miss my friends...i miss my friends...i miss my friends...i miss my friends...

i really miss my friends from CHR........................T.T

7:06 AM

nev3rbealone!